I’m still here and I’m still pregnant! I’m officially in those days that no pregnant woman ever wants to find themself in. I’m currently 40+6. 6 days have come and gone since we reached due date. Tomorrow I’ll be a whole week overdue. Fuck my life!
Me and Rara were so concerned about keeping Baby Rara in until September. Oldest in their year, first to turn 18, and we have a huge amount of September birthday’s already so why not add another to the mix. Once we got past 1st September I was happy for baby to arrive. But I had no signs. Well 3 weeks later I’m probably no further along!
Seeing people having their babies that are due after me infuriates me. Seeing people having their baby full stop infuriates me. Even though I know this baby can’t possibly stay in forever and the days inside are numbered, I’m so fed up! Combined with pregnancy hormones, being so uncomfortable I can only leave the house for short stints, being too fat to drive anywhere myself so having to rely completely on Rara and also not fitting in the booths in Nando’s anymore, I’m done! And let’s not even get started on the countless daily messages from people asking for ‘Any news, any signs, is baby here yet, anything?’. I’m so fed up with it! People telling me they are impatient, I’ve known about this baby a lot longer than you, I’ve gone through months of morning sickness, I’ve been counting down to 19th September since January so I know when I’m due! Stop reminding me!
So I’ve had a sweep. Baby is fully engaged. I’ve tried every trick in the book. I can’t get out of bed anymore, I can’t really do anything without Rara helping me. All I can do is have a bit more patience. I have a midwife appointment in 2 days time so I’m hoping she’ll give me some good news. Well in an ideal world, I’m hoping I’ll go in to labour now but apart from being so uncomfortable and every body part seizing up, I have no signs 😦